Bikram 30 Day Challenge: Day 1

Intention: Strength & Focus

I'm starting my 30 day challenge today.  I've been trying to prepare myself mentally for the challenges that lay ahead.  Trying to steel myself to stay committed for the very imminent arrival of the "I don't wanna go!" syndrome where I find every excuse of why I should skip a class...Yet I really can't even focus on that at the moment as real life has me reeling right now.  So as I head into practice, mentally and emotionally, I am hanging by a thread. The way I'm feeling now I want to run into the room and never come out.

My self-esteem has been taking a few hits lately.  It's caused me to come unhinged at times.  Where was all of the benefits of my meditation practice and years of yoga? I can only suppose they went the way of my discipline and commitment to consistent practice. I believe (without attachment to the outcome) that this 30 day journey will help me to regain my strength. And concentrated focus will help me find calm when the storms rages.

The first day of my 30 day challenge, despite all my anticipation, was really rather mundane.  I could have been any other day except with the noticeable effect of the practice drawing me into the room and keeping me there.  It was a wonderful escape. The 90 minutes went fast.

And as for my self esteem, it was boosted a bit by a flirtatious fellow yogi. I know, true real self-esteem comes from within.. blah blah blah but it was nice to be noticed.